Desperate, DESPERATE, DESPERATE

in this day and age?
hatred and envy?
who’s crazy?
with his big mouth?

ukraine: busy every day with them,
especially with a boy I know well.
lived with me for 5 years,
during that time, rewarded with his promotion.

he seemed to have a golden future then.
“dr.” for your name, something that feeds you.
now in service with the army,
rather than a shoe sweper?

who knows may say.
and please explain it to me.
I don’t understand anymore.
it hurts quite a bit though.

growing up with my dear parents war grief.
as if that wasn’t enough already.
and now this….with this sweet person!
I had a completely different wish for him.

cover: fragment uit aquarel van Eva Elbaum